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MAYA'S ADOPTION JOURNEY

WELCOME TO MY JOURNEY TO BRING MY DAUGHTER, MAYA GRACE HOME FROM GUATEMALA. DURING THIS JOURNEY I HAVE STUMBLED OVER MANY MOUNTAINS ONLY TO BUILD MY FAITH. THIS HAS BEEN ONE OF THE HARDEST JOURNEY'S OF MY LIFE AND IT HAS THE GREATEST PRIZE AT THE END. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THEM TO PLACE MY DAUGHTER IN MY ARMS FOREVER. MY DREAMS WILL THEN BE REALITY!!!

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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

MY HEART ACHES

WHEN WILL THE PAIN GO AWAY? I HAVE BEEN TRYING SO HARD TO HANDLE THE LOSS OF BERALI. I AM TIRED OF PRETENDING THAT NOTHING HAPPENED. IT WAS A BIG THING THAT HAPPENED. I LOST THE BABY THAT I HAD GROWN TO LOVE AS MY DAUGHTER. I HAD HELD HER IN MY ARMS. SO, I THINK I DESERVE TO GRIEVE MY LOSS, NO MATTER WHAT OTHERS THINK. ADOPTION IS SO HARD FOR SOME PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND. I REALLY DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND IT MOST OF THE TIME. BUT I KNOW THAT MY DAUGHTER WILL COME TO ME THROUGH ADOPTION, SO I AM TRYING TO UNDERSTAND THE PROCESS. I DON'T THINK UNDERSTANDING THE PROCESS ANY BETTER WOULD HAVE PREPARED ME FOR SUCH A LOSS. MY HEART ACHES FOR BERALI EVERYDAY.

posted by Ginger--Maya's mommy @ 9:22 PM  

1 Comments:

  • At 7:07 PM, Blogger Ellie said…

    Ginger-

    I complately agree with Jeanne!

    There is nothing that you did wrong, and there is nothing you could have done to prevent what had happened. I feel your grief, and am crying with you.

    My mom and sister both want you to know that you are in their prays, and someday, somewhere, somehow, your paths will cross, and you will know why this has happened. But for now, take your time for you.

    HUGS
    Friends FOREVER
    Ellie and Angelena

     

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I am a single mother with a daughter from Guatemala. I brought her home on August 21st, 2007. I am loving every second of motherhood. Maya is the love of my life. I can't imagine life without her. I thank God everyday that she is home in my arms.

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