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MAYA'S ADOPTION JOURNEY

WELCOME TO MY JOURNEY TO BRING MY DAUGHTER, MAYA GRACE HOME FROM GUATEMALA. DURING THIS JOURNEY I HAVE STUMBLED OVER MANY MOUNTAINS ONLY TO BUILD MY FAITH. THIS HAS BEEN ONE OF THE HARDEST JOURNEY'S OF MY LIFE AND IT HAS THE GREATEST PRIZE AT THE END. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THEM TO PLACE MY DAUGHTER IN MY ARMS FOREVER. MY DREAMS WILL THEN BE REALITY!!!

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

BROKEN DREAMS

WHAT HAVE I DONE????
ALL MY LIFE I HAVE DREAMED OF BEING CALLED "MOMMY". NOW AFTER 2 YEARS, MOUNDS OF PAPERWORK, AND THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS I WONDER IF MY DREAM WILL EVER BE REALITY. I LOVE THE AGENCY THAT I AM WITH NOW. HOWEVER, GOOD OR BAD AGENCY NOTHING WILL EVER GO RIGHT FOR ME WITH THIS ADOPTION. IT MAKES ME WONDER IF BEING A MOM IS IN GOD'S PLAN FOR MY LIFE. I WANT IT, BUT DOES HE WANT IT FOR ME? AFTER LOSING BERALI I SAID THAT I COULD NOT DO THIS AGAIN. HOWEVER, THE LONGING TO BE CALLED MOMMY WOULD NOT GO AWAY. I STILL HAVE THAT DEEP DESIRE TO BE A MOM. SO, I LET MYSELF FALL IN LOVE WITH YET ANOTHER BABY. ALL I CAN DO IS HOPE AND PRAY THAT ONE DAY I WILL HAVE MAYA IN MY ARMS FOREVER.

posted by Ginger--Maya's mommy @ 2:08 PM  

3 Comments:

  • At 3:59 PM, Blogger nikki said…

    Ginger,
    I'm so sorry that this is so hard. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. Just keep telling yourself. "Nothing worth doing, is easy". I have made it my mantra.
    Hang in there.
    Nicole

     

  • At 11:05 PM, Blogger Ruth said…

    Ginger,

    Hang in there sweetie. The wait is the hardest part and there are sooooo many days you won't hear anything at all because there's nothing new to hear. The girls case went into PGN on 6/16, was approved by the reviewer on 6/23 but didn't get signed by the director until 8/17. Soooo many days of waiting. You'll make it. Find strength in prayer.

     

  • At 7:31 AM, Blogger Calico Sky said…

    Hang in there Ginger
    You will be a mommy and the bond will be so strong because of the hard journey you had.
    'the more difficult the journey, the greater the reward'.

    It is wonderful that you have a good agency now, strong people around you and a daughter waiting for you. I pray for Maya every single night now, and God does listen to those prayers.

    kate

     

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I am a single mother with a daughter from Guatemala. I brought her home on August 21st, 2007. I am loving every second of motherhood. Maya is the love of my life. I can't imagine life without her. I thank God everyday that she is home in my arms.

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