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MAYA'S ADOPTION JOURNEY

WELCOME TO MY JOURNEY TO BRING MY DAUGHTER, MAYA GRACE HOME FROM GUATEMALA. DURING THIS JOURNEY I HAVE STUMBLED OVER MANY MOUNTAINS ONLY TO BUILD MY FAITH. THIS HAS BEEN ONE OF THE HARDEST JOURNEY'S OF MY LIFE AND IT HAS THE GREATEST PRIZE AT THE END. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THEM TO PLACE MY DAUGHTER IN MY ARMS FOREVER. MY DREAMS WILL THEN BE REALITY!!!

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Saturday, December 30, 2006

DO I HAVE PERMISSION TO SCREAM?????


I HOPE ALL YOU DON'T MIND A LITTLE SCREAMING TODAY!!! I AM MISSING MAYA SO MUCH I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I CAN'T EVEN LOOK AT HER PICTURES WITHOUT GETTING ALL TEARY EYED. UGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY, WHY, WHY?????? WHY DO WE HAVE TO LEAVE OUR BABIES SO LONG, SO FAR AWAY. MY HEART ACHES TO HAVE MAYA IN MY ARMS AGAIN. I FEEL SO LOST AND EMPTY WITHOUT HER. EACH TIME I VISIT THE PAIN OF LEAVING HER GETS WORSE. I GUESS WE BOND MORE EACH TIME. I HAD PLANNED TO VISIT HER EVERY 6 WEEKS UNTIL SHE COMES HOME. HOWEVER, I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN STAND TO LEAVE HER AGAIN. I THINK I MIGHT HAVE A HEART ATTACK OR MAYBE MY HEART WITH JUST BURST. I DON'T KNOW IF I WILL EVER FEEL WHOLE AGAIN UNTIL SHE IS IN MY ARMS AGAIN. SORRY FOR ALL OF THE SCREAMING, BUT I HAD TO GET IT OUT!!!
A BIG SHOUT OUT TO THE MCKENZIE CREW FOR THEIR NEW ADDITION. CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THAT NEW BABY!!
STEPH, I AM PRAYING THAT YOU ARE SOON BACK IN AND BRINGING YOUR BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL HOME. SHE NEEDS TO BE IN YOUR ARMS FOREVER!!!

posted by Ginger--Maya's mommy @ 2:39 AM  

13 Comments:

  • At 5:59 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    (((GINGER))))

    Sending hugs to you! This process is unbearable at times & we all can relate.

    Hang tough, girl. May 2007 make all your dreams come true!

     

  • At 7:17 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Big Hugs from all the way over here in England. You are strong and you can do it. You are near the very very end of the exceptionally long adoption journey, you're almost there. Keep holding on to that, view it as baby steps, write a long list of all the different steps in the process and you will see how close you are. She will be home soon!!!!
    2007 is going to be a GREAT year!

     

  • At 7:58 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Scream all you need to! It just plain sucks. I am praying to the PGN Gods they let you out quickly. If that doesn't work, maybe I'll get a PGN voodoo doll and stick it for you!

     

  • At 8:29 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Giving them back stinks. I won't forget that day...everyone cried, me, my mom, the translator and the fm.

    Think positively...she'll be home soon and this will all be a distant memory. That's what I try to think about anyway.

    I agree, 2007 will be a GREAT year!

     

  • At 10:13 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Ginger I feel you, and this is going to sound mean, but at least you have the option of visiting again. I left Miss Mia on Dec12 2005 and did not see her again except through pictures until we went to pick her up Sept 18 2006. SO count that as a blessing that you can see your baby often and watch her grow. I know many people that would love that option. Now that I sound like a big meanie know I am there for you and I feel your pain. You will get through this and once she is home you will have a hard time remembering what all this pain felt like. It is almost as though your heart overloads and will not let you remember the pain.

    Big Hugs from Kansas.

    Nichole

     

  • At 11:37 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Scream for me too!! This process is horrible. I'm kind of second guessing my visit. I want to see her, but this is the second post I have read this week regarding the giving back and how much it hurts! I'm kinda of scared to face the emotions!

     

  • At 12:10 PM, Blogger JuJu - said…

    Thanks for the shout out babe!You so rock - it means so much to have your support! I am praying for you today and I remember all to well the pain and frustration you are going through!
    It stinks!!!

    But..... I promise...

    They Do Come HOme!

    Julia;):):):)

     

  • At 12:54 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Ginger, I'm so sorry you're feeling so crumby. You are a wonderful, strong woman and you WILL get through this! Maya will be home soon! But until then...scream all you want...let it out!

     

  • At 3:26 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    ALWAYS feel free to scream. We all know exactly how you feel. It sucks. There's just nothing else to say about it. If you can, go again. It always got me through the hard times to have something to look forward to. Hugs and prayers to you today.

     

  • At 4:49 PM, Blogger Sig said…

    I understand how you feel all too well. I have been good about visiting every 6 weeks. I am preparing to go on my 4th trip and while I am so excited to see her I am dreading it already, leaving her.
    This is so hard, and I fear for her, the transition back and forth.
    It is just ludicrous that it takes so long. They are just NOT doing whats best for these babies. :(
    Let's hope we both get out SOON.

     

  • At 9:09 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    oooh GInger I just read this post!! --My heart is aching for you--honey I am so sorry--chickie you are so so close just hang on a little bit longer!!!
    --Scream, scream and then scream some more we are all her for you with cyberhugs! I know right now hugs are not enough --please let me know if you need anything!!!!!--anything at all --I will say some prayers for that big heart of yours!!! You are in the last stages and so close hang on!!!!!

     

  • At 9:11 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    I forgot these-----hugs
    hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

     

  • At 9:58 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Ginger that picture is heart-wrenching. You can see the sadness in your eyes. Scream all you want!!!

    They do come home...they do. I really thought that I would never be a mom and my angel is upstairs asleep in her crib.

    :)

     

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