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MAYA'S ADOPTION JOURNEY

WELCOME TO MY JOURNEY TO BRING MY DAUGHTER, MAYA GRACE HOME FROM GUATEMALA. DURING THIS JOURNEY I HAVE STUMBLED OVER MANY MOUNTAINS ONLY TO BUILD MY FAITH. THIS HAS BEEN ONE OF THE HARDEST JOURNEY'S OF MY LIFE AND IT HAS THE GREATEST PRIZE AT THE END. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THEM TO PLACE MY DAUGHTER IN MY ARMS FOREVER. MY DREAMS WILL THEN BE REALITY!!!

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Monday, January 29, 2007

I NEED A BREAK!!!


I NEED A VERY LONG VACATION. THIS PROCESS HAS COMPLETLY DRAINED ME OUT. I AM SO TIRED ALL THE TIME. I NEVER FEEL LIKE I USE TO FEEL. I HAVE NO ENERGY AT ALL. I CAN'T SLEEP BUT ABOUT 3 HOURS AT A TIME. I FEEL LIKE I AM ALWAYS HAVING TO DEFEND MYSELF WITH SOME PEOPLE. SOMETIMES I WISH THAT I COULD JUST PRETEND THAT I AM NOT IN THIS HORRIBLE ADVENTURE AND THEN ONEDAY I GET THE CALL!! I KNOW THIS WILL NOT HAPPEN. I LOOK AT MAYA'S PICTURES ALL THE TIME AND DREAM ABOUT THE DAY THAT SHE WILL BE HOME FOREVER. YES, SOMETIMES I DO WONDER IF THAT IS ONLY A DREAM. I MISS HER SO MUCH. MY HEART JUST ACHES FOR HER. SHE IS MY DAUGHTER AND SHE WILL ALWAYS BE MY DAUGHTER, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. I AM GOING TO TAKE A BREAK FROM ADOPTION BLOGGING. I WILL STILL POST DAILY BUT MAYBE NOT SO MUCH ABOUT THE PROCESS THAT IS GOING NO WHERE. I HOPE TO HAVE SOME NEWS, GOOD OR BAD, BY WEDNESDAY.

posted by Ginger--Maya's mommy @ 2:39 PM  

15 Comments:

  • At 2:55 PM, Blogger Ellie said…

    GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrr

    HUGS... and call me if you need to talk...

    Better yet... Come visit for a couple of days... You have hang out with Peanut!

    Love ya
    Ellie

     

  • At 3:10 PM, Blogger bodegalee said…

    Ginger!!
    Totally understand about taking a break from process but glad you'll keep posting... I so enjoy your posts... AND I sure hope you hear something in the next day or so...I know it's hard when you feel like you've got to defend yourself, but ya know... you've paid these folks a lot of money to do a job and they're NOT flippin' doing it! They're the ones who should be begging for forgiveness for the sloppiness of late! Praying you've been in PGN all this time...take good care
    Leigh

     

  • At 3:12 PM, Blogger Lori said…

    The process of adopting is so tough!! I had someone at church mention that I wasn't physically out, but maybe just emotionally when we were talking about adoption versus pregnancy! I quickly corrected her and told her that I was physically tired because of the emotional tole this process can have on a person. It truly is an emotional rollercoaster and it can cause a person to go into depression modes when it has been a long time before hearing any good news let alone news at all! Hang in there!! Please know that you are not alone!! In it together!

     

  • At 3:55 PM, Blogger Alleen said…

    It definitely can physically wear you down. Long distance hugs and prayers.

     

  • At 5:15 PM, Blogger Calico Sky said…

    I couldn't sleep tonight, so came online to check how you are. I am so sorry you are having such a tough time. You and Maya are in my prayers each adnd every day. Hang in there, you have so many people who love and care for you, and we will all be here each and every day.

     

  • At 5:29 PM, Blogger Lori and Robby said…

    I know you are exhausted, but keep posting so we will know how you're doing.

    It feels like its been FOREVER since we have gotten an update. Its like I don't even want to leave the house until I have some new news because of all the questions.

    Hang in there and keep posting!!! You are keeping me from going crazy! :)

     

  • At 5:38 PM, Blogger Sig said…

    I understand ya girl, you know I am here for you.
    OUR TIME IS COMING. I just pray you get word very soon. Those who keep info from you cannot do so for much longer.

     

  • At 6:59 PM, Blogger Mary said…

    I was hoping that after being out of town for a few days I would come back to find some super news. I'm sorry, Ginger. Please know that we are all her for you. Hope you hear something, anything, real soon.

    Mary

     

  • At 8:06 PM, Blogger Melissa said…

    Praying you will hear some good news soon. Do whatever you have to do to take care of yourself.

     

  • At 10:33 PM, Blogger Natalie said…

    Ginger, I am praying for you always. I completely understand your feelings of wanting to take a break. Give me a call anytime if you want to talk. Take care and do what is best for you!

     

  • At 9:07 AM, Blogger Holly said…

    Hang in there. I can honestly say that I feel exactly the same as you at times. It is such a draining process.

    I hope you hear some good news soon!

     

  • At 9:08 AM, Blogger kate said…

    news by Wednesday... "One Day More" (thought you could use a little Les Miz singalong)

     

  • At 12:22 PM, Blogger Crystal said…

    Hi--hugs hugs hugs!!! Call me if you need to talk anytime!!! Ginger I am so sorry about all of this I know it is tough really tough!!! Hang in there girlie!!! I am here for you!! Take all of the time you need --I hope you hear some great news soon!!

     

  • At 1:45 PM, Blogger Julie said…

    I'm sorry the process is getting so difficult for you. You & Maya deserve each other and I know it will happen soon! :) Long distance hugs!!!!

     

  • At 7:44 PM, Blogger ~Kristen said…

    I sure hope that tomorrow brings you good news... Sending good thoughts your way!! ;o)

     

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