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MAYA'S ADOPTION JOURNEY

WELCOME TO MY JOURNEY TO BRING MY DAUGHTER, MAYA GRACE HOME FROM GUATEMALA. DURING THIS JOURNEY I HAVE STUMBLED OVER MANY MOUNTAINS ONLY TO BUILD MY FAITH. THIS HAS BEEN ONE OF THE HARDEST JOURNEY'S OF MY LIFE AND IT HAS THE GREATEST PRIZE AT THE END. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THEM TO PLACE MY DAUGHTER IN MY ARMS FOREVER. MY DREAMS WILL THEN BE REALITY!!!

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Sunday, January 07, 2007

NEED A BIT OF ADVICE!!!!

THIS IS BERALI, MY FIRST REFERRAL. I LOST HER ON JULY 14, 2006. I HAD CALLED HER MY DAUGHTER FOR 8 MONTHS AND THEN THE BIRTHMOTHER CHANGED HER MIND. I HAD ALREADY HELD HER. I LOVED HER LIKE MY DAUGHTER.
THIS IS MAYA!!! MOST OF YOU ALREADY KNOW HER. SHE IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. I KNOW THAT THERE WAS A REASON I LOST BERALI. I NOW HAVE MAYA.

MY PROBLEM IS I STILL HAVE BERALI'S PICTURES UP. I KNOW SHE IS NOT MY DAUGHTER AND THAT SHE NEVER WILL BE. BUT I JUST CAN'T FIND IT IN MY HEART TO TAKE HER OFF MY WALL. SHE WILL ALWAYS HAVE A VERY SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART. I DO HAVE MAYA'S PICTURES PLASTERED EVERY WHERE. CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT??? I REALLY NEED ADVICE ON WHAT I SHOULD DO??? PLEASE HELP MY DEAR BLOGGER FRIENDS.

posted by Ginger--Maya's mommy @ 7:59 AM  

19 Comments:

  • At 8:20 AM, Blogger A said…

    why not take down Berali's pictures and make a special scrapbook of her? I hope I spelled her name right.

     

  • At 8:56 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Ginger,

    People come into our lives for a reason. Berali is one of those people. I have photos of many special people "up" in my house - including friends of my teenagers who are special to our family. Some of these girls spent so much time in my house growing up, I consider them my daughters. (Which means I still tell them what I think they need to know, even if they don't want to hear it.) KEEP HER PHOTO UP. While she isn't a daughter you can bring home, she is a daughter of your heart.

    Ruth

     

  • At 9:21 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    It is perfectly fine to have B's pic up and in albums and such. She is and always will be your daughter in your heart and Myay needs to know that B helped you find her. So you can just call them "soul" sisters...lol.

    Nichole

     

  • At 10:08 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    I like the idea of the scrapbook, but I'd leave them up for as long as you need them to be. She is your first baby and elder sister of Maya in a way. She is a part of Maya's story that you can't leave out.

     

  • At 10:22 AM, Blogger nikki said…

    You gave a piece of your heart to Berali, and your should leave them up as long as you need to. She is part of yours and Maya's story. But a scrapbook is a nice idea too.

     

  • At 1:17 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Leave them up. You'll know when the time is right to take them down. Then I like the scrapbook idea so you'll always have those memories.

     

  • At 1:18 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Ginger,
    Berali is a piece of your heart. Leave her pictures up. At some point you may come to a place in your life where you feel ok taking them down and making a book. Until then, I agree with the others that she is a part of your journey to Maya and it's ok to treasure that. It speaks a lot of your heart and how much a mother's love multiplies.
    dawnz

     

  • At 2:18 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    I don't think there's anything wrong with you keeping her pic up. I think you should keep it and put it in Maya's scrapbook and someday you can explain the process to Maya and this was part of the process. YOu'll know in your heart when it's time to take the pic down.

    megan

     

  • At 3:03 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    What a tough decision to make. I agree that you need to do whatever you can do right now emotionally. If that means leaving the pictures up for a few months or a few years, you should do it. She definitely is a huge part of the story on how you became Maya's mommy!

     

  • At 3:13 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    I think Ginger- she is your daughter..your daughter - even though she is gone - she is yours in your heart. She should be on your wall and she is your family and a part of maya's story and her life as well. I think she should always be made a part somehow of your sotry and your journey to Maya....wether in a scrapbook or in a photo on the wall...

    Julia;):)

     

  • At 4:14 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Ginger-

    HONEY WE ARE HOME AND THE HOUSE IS UP FOR SALE!

    NOW, to the most important part of your blog question...

    Berali will always have a place in your heart. She WAS and still is your Daughter. She is just going to stay with her birthmother. There is absolutely no reason to take down her pictures, she is what brought you to Maya, and that is something that you need to keep close to your heart. I hope that makes since. However, I know the pain you felt when she was riped out of your dreams, but the heart is still the heart, and she will ALWAYS be in your heart.

    I am so glad you started this blog, and so glad that you are keeping it up... Maya will treasure it when she gets older.

    HUGS
    Ellie

     

  • At 5:42 PM, Blogger Betsy said…

    I'm not sure what the problem with leaving Berali's picture up is. Pictures always remind me to say a little prayer and keeping the love inside my heart alive. You will have her picture up as long as you need to.

     

  • At 6:34 PM, Blogger ~Kristen said…

    She is a huge part of your life and the reason Maya is now. She will forever be in your heart and there is no reason she should not hold a place on your wall. She will always be your daughter and Maya's "sister".

     

  • At 10:36 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Hi Ginger,
    You are so sweet to leave comments on my blog. I feel like you have followed right along with me on the journey even though I never knew you. One time I tried to post here but couldn't. I even left you a comment on my site for you from the visit trip. Thank you for your support and now that I am on blogger, I can follow your journey as well. Regarding your recent post, You know I have had three miscarriages and could never bring myself to discard the ultrasound pictures even though it was so sad to look at. For one, it reminds me of the reason I began to turn to adoption and therefore the reason Gabby came to Rob and I and is the absolute light in our every day. And another, it reminds me of how strong I can be and therefore a better mother to Gabby. Keep Berali's pictures up for as long as you need. You'll know when the time is right to put them in a safe place, you'll feel it. I am thankful for your comments and I hope to keep following your journey. Your posts are inspiring and Maya is a lucky little lady! -Mera

     

  • At 3:01 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    You should do what makes you happy. If you like her picture up, leave it up. If it makes you sad to see it every day, the scrapbook idea is nice.

     

  • At 7:06 AM, Blogger kitchu said…

    I say celebrate who she is, what she means to you, and keep a special place for her - whether that be up on your wall (that is probably what I would do) or in a scrapbook (I'd do that too!)- like most who posted here, she in some way led you to Maya, so they are like "soul" sisters... and she is part of Maya's story too...
    Kris

     

  • At 12:19 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    I say do what your heart tells you to do. You can't go wrong that way.

     

  • At 12:57 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Don't feel like you have to put the pictures away. She will always be a part of you even if she didn't end up getting to be your daughter. Keep up the pictures as long as you want. Losing her was a terrible blow to your heart and only you can decide when it feels right to put them away.

     

  • At 2:31 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    I think it is special that you remember her. Maybe a nice journal or scrapbook? You never know when God brings people back into our lives, and some day that scrapbook may have a purpose!

     

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