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MAYA'S ADOPTION JOURNEY

WELCOME TO MY JOURNEY TO BRING MY DAUGHTER, MAYA GRACE HOME FROM GUATEMALA. DURING THIS JOURNEY I HAVE STUMBLED OVER MANY MOUNTAINS ONLY TO BUILD MY FAITH. THIS HAS BEEN ONE OF THE HARDEST JOURNEY'S OF MY LIFE AND IT HAS THE GREATEST PRIZE AT THE END. I CAN'T WAIT FOR THEM TO PLACE MY DAUGHTER IN MY ARMS FOREVER. MY DREAMS WILL THEN BE REALITY!!!

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Tuesday, January 09, 2007

MAJOR MELT DOWN AND I AM OKAY!!


I FEEL MUCH BETTER RIGHT NOW. I MANAGE TO GET THROUGH WORK LAST NIGHT WITH EVERYONE ASKING " HAVE YOU GOT ANY NEWS?" SO, THIS MORNING I HAD THIS MAJOR MELT DOWN IN SHOWER. I HAVE NEVER SEEN SO MANY TEARS. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN TOLD THAT TEARS ARE HEALING TO YOUR SOUL. SO, I DONE BEING DEPRESSED ABOUT THIS. I KNOW THAT I WILL PROBABLY STILL HAVE SOME VERY EMOTIONAL DAYS BUT I CAN DO THIS. I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER IN GUATEMALA THAT NEEDS A HEALTHY AND HAPPY MOMMY. I LOVE HER SO MUCH AND I WILL BE HERE FOR HER. SO, I HAVE SET A FEW GOALS. I ORIGINALLY SAID THAT VALENTINE'S WOULD BE MY GOAL TO HAVE HER HOME. NOW I HAVE CHANGED MY GOAL TO EASTER. I WILL DYE EASTER EGGS WITH MY DAUGHTER THIS YEAR IN OUR HOME.
THANKS SO MUCH TO ALL OF MY BLOGGER PALS FOR OPENING MY EYES AND ENCOURAGING ME TO HANG ON A BIT LONGER. YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!

posted by Ginger--Maya's mommy @ 3:17 PM  

9 Comments:

  • At 6:59 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    We all love you and Maya and we want her home in your amrs too - we are all cheering you both on during your journey to be a forever family - and home for GOOD!!!!

    Julia;):)

     

  • At 8:01 PM, Blogger Kelly said…

    Awww. Sometimes a meltdown can be a good thing. I think tears do help sometimes. I hope there are not too many more for you though. Hope you get some good news soon...and BTW I am going nutty too with well meaning folks who ask "any news?????" (like I would not be screaming it from the rooftops...)
    HANG IN THERE.

     

  • At 8:21 PM, Blogger nikki said…

    Glad you are feeling better. Sometimes you do need to just cry it out. Hoping you hear some good news soon.

     

  • At 9:20 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Glad to hear you're feeling better. I was also down in the dumps yesterday. I just want OUT! Easter will be a great day this year! Have you shopped for an Easter dress yet? :-)

     

  • At 11:17 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    HEY you I am so glad you are feeling better girlie!!! I hope you get some good news soon!!! We are all here holding your hand please know that --I love ya!!!! hugs!!!

     

  • At 5:22 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Just remember that soon your meltdown days are going to be a distant memory! I had to start nicely asking people to not ask me how it was going. Or I would answer with not soon enough, or something to let them know their thoughts were appreciated, but painful. I am a relatively expressive person though... some may say overly sensitive. Your Maya will be home at the perfect time. Really!

     

  • At 2:00 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Patience sucks! I hope you get word soon.

     

  • At 6:02 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    you vent whenever you need to, will always be here to listen!

    BIG HUGS!!!!!

     

  • At 9:31 AM, Blogger SBH said…

    Hi,
    I came accros your blog after reading a your post in the SOAG yahoo message board.. I just wanted to share that I understand how you are feeling. I also had co-working & friends asking me if I had heard anything over & over again.. It just added to the stress... Didn't they know that if I had heard anything.. they would know about it??? UGH!!! On the brighter side, I brought my daughter home on thanksgiving day (after 10 1/12 motnhs of waiting) and the awful waiting.. All the stress & all the tears (There were many) were all quickly forgotten. Hang in there.. This part is hard.. But it is worth every second of the wait!

    Sarah

    WWW.MLCOFTHEW.BLOGSPOT.COM

     

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I am a single mother with a daughter from Guatemala. I brought her home on August 21st, 2007. I am loving every second of motherhood. Maya is the love of my life. I can't imagine life without her. I thank God everyday that she is home in my arms.

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